She - A Fiction 1
I noticed her. Her smile. Her friendly, pleasant demeanor. Something about her, right from the first time I saw her, just grabbed me. I couldn't stop thinking about her. It was driving me crazy. We'd been introduced and hung out with the whole group, but never had a one-on-one conversation, yet she invaded my brain like nobody else ever had.
I have girls at every gig that let me know they're ready, willing, and able to do whatever, wherever, and however. All I have to do is say the word. It's what I dreamed of when we got these gigs. Honestly, I never took advantage of it because they were skanky and desperate, and that's just not a good look. I'm not ready to settle down and get married. I just want somebody to be there. I want one steady girl in my life that I can count on. Somebody who'll be there for me. Somebody I can be there for. Sometimes, my heart aches because I want this so badly. It eludes me and makes me sad. I look at my brother, Dirk, and he has a girlfriend. He met her at work. Then, there's bizarre Fitz, who even managed to get a girl. She was a looker, too, and nice. I didn't want her, but a guy could do worse. I was even feeling envious of the relationship between Marty & Hayden. They're gay! You know something is wrong when you start feeling envious of your gay bandmates.
Her name was Brooke. She'd come over as an exchange student athlete to the University and was best friends with Paul's girlfriend, Alexis. Paul, Art, Ed, and Lance had met Brooke a few years before. The feedback about her had been positive and they all said she was unique and one of a kind, just a great person. I didn't think anything of it, but was curious to meet Alexis because Paul and her had been writing letters to each other for almost 3 years. He said he fell in love with her through her letters and knew that he would marry her. Alexis was a great girl. She was strong, independent, and radiated strength. She matched Paul evenly and they were great together. The one strange thing is that Alexis and Brooke weren't roommates, even though they were both students at the university. Alexis and Paul had gotten a place together even though Paul's dad disapproved and took every opportunity to let them know that. Brooke was roommates with Lance's girlfriend Autumn. Autumn was a real bitch. Hot as hell, but a bitch. She treated Lance like shit. I don't know for sure, but I highly suspect she might be cheating on him. I have no way to prove and doubt Lance would take my word, and Autumn is one of those chicks that could get by with anything. So I say nothing. Autumn knows I've seen her with that other guy, though, but she says nothing to me when the whole group gets together.
I've been trying to think of a reason to have a one-on-one conversation with Brooke, and I can't think of one. The whole group is supposed to get together for dinner in a few days. I go over in my head all the things I could ask about. I've thought about talking to Alexis to see if there's a way that she could help me maneuver everybody so that Brooke and I end up sitting next to each other. It'd be so easy for a one-on-one conversation to take place then. I can't let anybody know how I feel. It makes no sense that I can feel this strongly about Brooke when I've only said 'hi, how are you, nice to meet you' to her. Alexis would be cool and wouldn't tell anybody.
It would suck if the rest of the guys found out. Although, I do think Marty & Hayden might be pretty cool about it. Sometimes I wonder if Ed's brother Declan wouldn't be another possible connection to Brooke. He's got several classes with her.
